Dear Allah

aku tau selama ini ibadah aku ga bener.
aku ninggalin shalat lima waktu yang udah jadi kewajiban segala umat.
aku suka berkelakuan seenaknya tanpa ngeliat nilai-nilai keindahan di mata agama.
aku sering ngelawan orang tua.
aku sering bohong.

aku yakin bahwa Engkau itu ada.
aku yakin bahwa Engkau lah yang memiliki semuanya.
Engkau berkuasa atas segalanya.
tapi maaf kalo aku belum bisa bener-bener nunjukin segala ketaatan pada-Mu.
aku nyoba, tapi belum bisa.

di dalam hati kecil aku yang paling dalem aku kadang ngerasa iri sama orang-orang yang udah punya keyakinan dan kebiasaan ibadah yang teratur.
kenapa aku ga seperti mereka?
kenapa aku suka mikir dengan gampangnya untuk ninggalin shalat wajib?

aku belum siap mati.
karena aku belum punya bekel apa-apa untuk di dunia selanjutnya.
aku takut mati.
aku ga mau masuk neraka.
aku takut masuk neraka.
aku takut terjilat api neraka.
tapi kenapa aku masih suka ngelewatin shalat?
kenapa aku masih ngelawan orang tua?
kenapa aku masih suka bohong?
kenapa kelakuan aku masih seenak jidat?

Ya Allah, cuma Engkau yang tau.

F for..

Franz Ferdinand


Favorite Songs
Ulysses, The Dark Of The Matinee, Lucid Dreams, Katherine Kiss Me, Auf Achse

Favorite Album
Self Titled (2004), itu album peng-gebrak kalo menurut gue. mantap. Tonight (2009) juga gue suka.

First Song I Ever Heard
TAKE ME OUT! jelas itu lagu yang bener-bener menggebrak!

Favorite Lyrics
You see her, you can't touch her
You hear her, you can't hold her
You want her, you can't have her
You want to, but she won't let you
You see her, you can't touch her
You hear her, you can't hold her
You want her, you can't have her
You want to, but she won't let you
(Auf Achse, Self Titled)

Favorite Video
The Dark Of Matinee. konyol. gue suka bagian dimana mereka menari dengan para classmates-nya.



satu yang pasti, Alex Kapranos punya suara yang bener-bener pas. pas dalam arti pas untuk musik mereka. AAAAAH JATUH CINTA GUE POKOKNYA SAMA FRANZ FERDINAND!!!
temen gue, gue suruh dengerin Franz Ferdinand komentarnya, "Ah jadul!" ck. susah!

E for..

E for..
E for umm..
nyerah.
ternyata ga ada band yang bener-bener gue ikutin dalam abjad E. tapi mungkin gue bisa memberikan satu rekomendasi lagu.

E for Elvis Costello

bukan band sih, tapi kan tetep dari E juga (HA!)

Elvis Costello - Pump It Up

Turn it down a little bit
or turn it down flat.
Pump it up when you don't really need it.
Pump it up until you can feel it.

Down in the pleasure center,
hell bent or heaven sent,
listen to the propaganda,
listen to the latest slander.
There's nothing underhand
that she wouldn't understand.

Pump it up until you can feel it.
Pump it up when you don't really need it.

She's been a bad girl.
She's like a chemical.
Though you try to stop it,
she's like a narcotic.
You wanna torture her.
You wanna talk to her.
All the things you bought for her,
putting up your temp'rature.

Pump it up until you can feel it.
Pump it up when you don't really need it.

Out in the fashion show,
down in the bargain bin,
you put your passion out
under the pressure pin.
Fall into submission,
hit-and-run transmission.
No use wishing now for any other sin.

Pump it up until you can feel it.
Pump it up when you don't really need it.



kalo lo bilang lo gak--at least--goyangin kepala atau kaki pas dengerin lagu ini, wah, sakit lo.
setelah sekian lama, gue baru tau kalo lagu ini tentang masturbasi WAHAHAHA

udah ah bingung band dari E apaan. besok mulai F! dan gue udah punya kandidatnya :)

D for..

Dears, The


Favorite Songs
22 The Death Of All The Romance, You And I Are A Gang Of Losers, Ticket To Immortality

Favorite Album
No Cities Left (2003), paling nge-jleb

First Song I ever Heard
22 The Death Of Al The Romance, di Trax FM

Favorite Lyrics
Fasting love will lead us all to nowhere. When, when will we learn.I shall avenge the death of all the romance until, until I'm gone.
(22 The Death Of All The Romance, No Cities Left)
And I promise not to cry anymore. All the reasons beat the crap out of me. Everyday when I wake up they are waiting, but I promise not to cry anymore.
(Lost In The Plot, No Cities Left)

Favorite Video
Whites Only Party, video klipnya ngegambarin gimana jaman dulu itu rasisme kentel banget dalam kehidupan. beda sama jaman modern seperti sekarang lah intinya gitu. beruntung lah kita hidup di jaman modern dimana rasisme udah jadi topik paling basi. liat aja formasi mereka, Murray Lightburn, vokalisnya, doi personil satu-satunya yang berkulit hitam, tapi bisa get along bareng-bareng yang lainnya dan membuat BAND.



gue jatuh cinta sama suaranya Lightburn. berat-berat seksi. nah, siapa bilang dalam suatu band personil berkulit hitam ga bisa jadi frontman? hmm :)

uyeah. have you got it?

C for..

Coldplay

Favorite Songs
Fix You, Viva La Vida, In My Place, Yellow, The Scientist, Speed Of Sound

Favorite Album
A Rush Of Blood To The Head (2002)

First Song I Ever Heard
waduh lupa. tapi sepertinya The Scientist. umm atau In My Place? ah sudah lupa sekali lah pokoknya.

Favorite Lyrics
When you try your best, but you don't succeed. When you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse
(Fix You, X&Y)
Revolutionaries wait for my head on a silver plate. Just a puppet on a lonely string. Oh who would ever want to be king?
(Viva La Vida, Viva La Vida)

Favorite Video
I used to like The Scientist, tapi setelah baru-baru ini keluar video klipnya yang Every Tear Drop Is A Waterfall, berubah deh. tapi tetep suka lah The Scientist mah. mantep. itu video klip mereka yang pertama yang pernah gue tonton, di MTV.






I don't think I need to give an explanation for this awesome band. all I know is I LOVE THIS BAND.
the end.
thank you.
good bye.

enak loh

note: jangan lihat dari tampilannya. walaupun tampilan bak kerak telor, rasanya tidaklah beda seperti makaroni skutel.
ugh, seandainya aja brandon boyd main ke rumah abis konser, gue bikinin deh.

oh iya, gue belom ngepost Bands In Alphabet ya malem ini? sebentar ya. masih bingung mau nulis tentang band apa yang dari huruf C. susah loh. tapi tenang, sudah ada kok kandidat-kandidatnya di kepala gue.

B for..

Brobecks, The

Favorite Songs
Small Cuts, Boring, March 1st

Favorite Album
Violent Things.. eh, tapi lebih suka Have A Goodnight And A Pleasant Tomorrow deh.

First Song I Ever Heard
Love At First Sight, di tumblr. pertama kali denger gue udah suka sama liriknya. nampol hahaha.

Favorite Lyrics
All my enemies are just demons in my head and every one I meet will pass right through me in the end.
Can I walk the line that leads me straight back to your heart? Will you wait for me or will our feelings disappear?
(March 1st, Goodnight And Have A Pleasant Tomorrow)

They say all good things have an end. So will it be heartbreak or death? Maybe we can last beyond all time, my hand in yours, and your hand in mine.
(Heartbreak Or Death, Goodnight And Have A Pleasant Tomorrow)

Favorite Video
um, so far gue belom pernah sih denger The Brobecks bikin album. tapi kalo ditanya live performance favorit, gue bakal jawab live performance doi yang di Taylorsville Greywhale. Dallon bener-bener tampil seadanya. seadanya dalam arti, alat musik yang sangat minim, tapi tetep splendid. ada di satu lagu, pas lagu Small Cuts, dimainin bener-bener yang akustik akustik! he doesn't even use mic to sing. cuma bermodalkan suaranya yang powerful.



The Brobecks ini bandnya Dallon Weekes (addition-nya Panic! At The Disco). cuma dia member tetapnya. band ini udah ada dari 2002 dan sampe sekarang statusnya masih unsigned walaupun udah beberapa kali ditawarin sama Sony dan sama label-label indie yang lebih kecil di US sana. tapi hebatnya, walaupun statusnya unsigned begitu, The Brobecks bisa masuk ke chart-chart radio lokal dan bisa nempatin posisi jawara selama beberapa minggu.
gue tau The Brobecks belom lama sih. awal taun kayanya hahaha.

ada bonus nih buat diliat-liat.

A for..

Arctic Monkeys

Favorite Songs
Teddy Picker, Matador, Dance A Little Liar, Choo Choo, Fake Tales Of San Fransisco, Do Me A Favor, She's Thunderstorm. overall, gue suka semuanya sih sebenernya. tapi yang paling sering didengerin ya yang itu-itu lah (rasanya).

Favorite Album
um, sampe sekarang kan mereka udah sampe album keempat tuh, tambah satu EP, dan yang paling gue suka dari kesemuanya adalah Favorite Worst Nightmare. tapi gue juga suka Humbug. Suck It And See juga. ah bingung. tapi ya yang paling gue favoritin itu Favorite Worst Nightmare.

First Song I Ever Heard
I Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor, di Trax FM kira-kira waktu jaman-jaman terakhir gue SMP atau jaman awal-awal SMA.

Favorite Lyrics
Do me a favor and break my nose. Do me a favor and tell me to go away. Do me a favor and stop asking questions!
Do me a favor and ask if you need some help! She said, do me a favor and stop flattering yourself! How to tear apart the ties that bind. Perhaps fuck off, might be too kind.
(Do Me A Favor, Favorite Worst Nightmare)
The day after you stole my heart, everything I touched told me it would be better shared with you. And now you're hiding in my soup and this book reveals your face and there's a splashing in my eyelids. The concentration continually breaks. I did request the mark you cast didn't heal as fast I hear your voice in silences. Will the teasing of the fire be followed by the thud?
And the jostling crowd. You're not allowed to tell the truth and the photobooth's a liar. And the sharpened explanations but theres no screaming reason to inquire. I'd like to poke them in their prying eyes with things they never see if it smacks in their temples.
(Fire And The Thud, Humbug)
Just cause everybody's doing it, does that mean that I can too?
(No Buses, Who The Fuck Are Arctic Monkeys?)

Favorite Video
Cornerstone. kenapa? padahal video klipnya 'begitu' doang. justru karena bikinnya keliatan rada slenge'an, tapi gue suka. kenapa ya um, opini gue begini, walaupun mereka bikin video sesuka hati mereka, yang only one shot dan cuma berlatar belakang tembok putih, tapi tetep asik." dan mereka berhasil tuh menurut gue. cukup terhibur sih sama Alex Turner di video itu. tiba-tiba muncul dari bawah kamera di tengah-tengah lagu.



oh, dan gue juga menggunakan Teddy Picker sebagai bunyi alarm di handphone gue hahaha. well um, sekarang lo tau kan alasan di balik nama blog ini. hmm :)

salah apa gue?
dari bulan kemaren gue udah memimpi-mipikan bisa nonton 30STM di Java Rockin' Land yang udah main hari jumat kemaren. tapi karena ga dapet tiket dan ga punya duit buat beli tiketnya yang nyampe setengah juta itu, ga jadi.
gue pasrah.
barusan gue makan nasi goreng sama sepupu gue. dia cerita dia nonton JRL hari sabtu kemaren. dia nonton The Cranberries. dia dapet tiket dari kantornya.
dan lo tau dia bilang apa? di kantornya ada tiket JRL nganggur. HARI JUMAT. DAN GA ADA YANG BERMINAT NONTON DI HARI JUMAT.
sepupu gue bilang, "uni ga tau neno mau nonton yang hari jumat sih. kalo tau kan uni mintain. nganggur itu tiketnya ga ada yang mau."
*insert gif orang nangis di ambang pintu*

ah yasudahlah. sekarang gue mau bermain.
mainan ini terinspirasi dari tumblr. yoi, di tumblr lagi 'in' banget nih.
mau tau mainan apa?
mainannya itu..
main
HATI.
...
..
.
krik.
bukan deng.
tumblrista (ceritanya sebutan buat para pengguna tumblr gitu biar keren), belakangan ini sering banget mainin ini. terus gue pengen deh ikutan. tapi ga mau di tumblr, akhirnya gue mainan sendiri aja, bikin di blogger deh.
nama mainannya "30 BANDS IN 30 DAYS".
jadi dalam 30 hari lo mesti ngepost minimal 1 band dalam 1 hari. lebih juga gapapa sih, tapi kan namanya aja 30 Bands in 30 Days, jadi yah..
sebenernya gue udah mainan beginian, tapi bukan dalam lingkup musik (band), tapi tulisan. di twitter ada yang mencetuskan gitu, @365Tulisan2011. tapi gue sadar karena gue ga bakat dalam menulis, jadi ga gue lanjutin.
sampe sekarang pun, udah pertengahan taun begini, tulisan gue di blog paling belom nyampe jumlah 20an hahaha.
nah sekarang, gue sadar, interest gue cuma ke musik, film dan fotografi.
tapi karena 30 bands in 30 days sepertinya kurang menarik, gue mau bikin band dan lagunya secara alphabetical.
dalam satu hari, satu alphabet. so that'd keeping me writes something, yeah?

mainannya mulai dari hari ini, 24 Juli 2011 :)
so, let's play, "BANDS IN ALPHABETICAL ARRANGEMENT"

kawan lama

temen main gue waktu kecil, dika (paling kiri) lagi main ke jakarta. sekarang dia tinggal di pekanbaru, di jakarta lagi ada acara modelling. jadilah dia mampir ke perumahan lama, temu kangen sama gue dan amel (tengah), temen main bersama waktu cilik-cilik dulu.
kita udah ga ketemu sejak taun 2002 sampe 2011 sekarang. sembilan taun. wow. jelas aja kalo gue ga ngenalin dia waktu pertama kali ngeliat dia main ke rumah tadi sore hahaha.

iseng

taken by:
my mommy

edited by:
me

bromance terbaik tahun ini

gue baru saja kelar nonton X-Men: First Class
najis ya telat banget. padahal itu film udah keluar dari berbulan-bulan yang lalu. tapi karena di endonesa lagi ada masalah pajak dilm impor jadi ga ditayangin di bioskop. bahkan kung fu panda pun ga keluar juga. ckck

so, um. HA! sepanjang film, gue speechless.
speechles melihat setiap adegan yang menampilkan Charles Xavier dan Erik Lehnsherr. Charles diperanin sama James 'Sexy' McAvoy dan Erik diperanin sama Michael 'Sexy' Fassbender (kenapa? mau muntah ya karena ada nama tengahnya? ah gih sana, emang mereka seksi kok #egois)

mereka bener-bener.. ah. pokoknya, chemsitry di antara mereka tuh bener-bener dapet banget.

ah pokoknya AH banget lah.
satu kata, INTIM. intim di sini bukan berarti sampe yang ngelepas baju dan yah lo tau.. tapi intim di sini bener-bener intim di segala level, physically, intellectually, dan emotionally.
besok gue harus nonton lagi.
tapi karena besok ada resepsi pernikahan keduanya uni gue, jadi mungkin nontonnya malem. ck.

yaudah, sori ga penting gini.

CHARLES+ERIK=CHERIK
gue nobatkan sebagai..
BROMANCE TERBAIK TAHUN INI
*prokprokprokprok*

kenapa mesti Snape sih, no?

stuff

The best moments in reading are when you come across something--a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things--that you'd thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you've never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it's as if a hand has come out, and taken yours."

-taken from The History Boys-

euwh

kemarin uni gue menikah.
gue pun didandanin.
LO TAU KAN DANDAN?
IT'S NOT MY THING.
not yet.
tapi kan.. tetep aja #euwh
sebenernya make-up nya ga jelek. kebayanya juga ga jelek. um, natural?
tapi rambut gue!
oh maaaaan..
gue ga bakal mempublish foto gue berkebaya.
ga bakal.
enggak. enggak. enggak.
paling engga sampai mental gue siap untuk dihujat oleh lo-lo-lo yang udah menyiapkan kata-kata untuk dilemparkan ke gue setelah melihat dandanan gue kemarin.
and there's one thing.. NO MORE LONGTORSO!
god, I hate those shitty invention.
it was very torturing me, for god sake.

1st serious project

bisa dibilang ini proyek menulis pertama gue yang um, boleh lah dibilang serius.
gue menulis.
iya iya menulis, pake pulpen di atas kertas nulis aku cinta kamu ryan ross.
oh enggak bukan itu tapinya.
gue menulis um, cerpen? yah ga tau ini bakal jadi cerpen atau cerita bersambung. tapi yang pasti gue udah buat master post-nya (hazeeeek)
kenapa gue bilang cukup serius?
karena untuk ngebuat jalan ceritanya ini aja gue bener-bener browsing, nanya mbah gugel, puasa mutih, semedi di bawah air terjun suramadu (ah emang ada?)
nama-nama tokohnya masih tentative sih dan gue masih ga tau nantinya kalo cerita ini udah jadi mau gue post dimana. entah di sini atau di livejournal gue.
kalo di sini, rada malu *insert obnoxious-blushing expression here*

dan sekarang *uhuk* gue mau berbagi sedikit bocoran dari cerita yang sedang gue bikin *uhuk*
pesen gue satu,
jangan muntah ya.

here it is..

THE PHOTOGRAPH

Annabelle

She’s a graphic design student at CalArts. 22 years old. A bit introvert, kind. She lives on the 5th floor apartment by herself –with her cat, jell-o actually. She was a huge fans of action film with their amazing graphic. Now she works as a graphic designer at movie magazine publisher. Very good on drawing too. Her father died because of drunk driving when she was 19, when she was with Alex.

Dylan

A photographer. 29. Coffee addict. Deadly insomniac. Have no brothers and sisters. Lives with his best friend, Greg. Now he was working as a photographer for a band. A quite major band. He take photos and made the documentary for the band. So wherever the band go, he follows them.

Alex

An underground photographer. 24 years old. Have traveled to all over Europe to fulfill his photography passion. A charming, kind, and loyal type. He’ll do anything to get what he want. Obsessive. Annabelle's ex-boyfriend when they were in high school which is 4 years ago, approximately.

Summary: Annabelle is a Graphic Design student at California Institute of the Arts (CalArts). She was in a long-term relationship with his boyfriend, Dylan, for the past two years. And now, she met Alex, her ex-boyfriend. And what she had in her mind was only, "I don't want it to happen again."

okthxbye!